Saturday 31 December 2005

Pic of the day: The excavation of the living room table is almost finished. And at the bottom, we find... crumbs! Lots and lots of crumbs! Meep.

Scare the Dogs Night

It is milder today, but still snowing slightly. I was looking forward to carrying lots of stuff to my new apartment today since I didn't have to go to work. I went to bed around 2:30 last night ... I fell asleep in my chair earlier but when I woke up and went to the bedroom, I wasn't so tired anymore. I woke up this morning at 7:30 and was a bit hungry, but not enough to get up, and then slept till 10:30. Sleep is always something I tend to get too little of, so I don't mind that.

I ate half a half-liter box of yogurt and later I ate a few cookies and drank milk with healthy bacteria and fruit juice in. Still thirsty, I went so far as to drink pure water, something I rarely do. It tasted good, which it rarely ever does. It is not normal for me to be thirsty. When it happens, it is normally a sign of upcoming diarrhea. Haven't noticed any of that so far, though.

I took two trips while it was still daylight, carrying books and clothes. Burned ca 800 kcal (it is milder today so I did not have to move fast to keep my body temperature up). But before I could take a third trip, I felt so tired in my legs and arms, as if they were abnormally heavy. Strange. This is not a level of exercise that should cause such tiredness, and I don't have a fever or higher pulse as I should have if I harbored a flu or other infection. We'll just have to see, I guess. I try to listen to my body as long as it is not obviously trying to kid me. (Like, "must have sex now!" doesn't work on me. "Must have water!" does.)

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And then it is Scare The Dogs Night again. And I pull aside the curtains and sit and watch the nightscape outside the Chaos Node for the last time, the trees covered with a light layer of snow, sparkling in bright colors from the fireworks raining down from on high. And I think, not about the money wasted on this primitive ritual as usual. I think of the latest scientific theory about our universe, how it seems to not be slowing down but expanding faster and faster. And the currently most likely scenario, that in the end the galactic clusters will no longer be able to stay together, their old and fading spirals being pulled out of sight. Then the galaxies themselves are ripped apart like a serving of cream set adrift on a stream, rivers of stars running out in the void and dispersing, each of them alone for the first time in its life, the planets being flung off like motherless chickens. But only for a mercifully brief time. Then stars, planets and moons all break up as gravity surrenders its battle once and for all. In seconds all matter is rendered into dust and sparks, before the atoms explode, every one of them, the largest first, and electrons and protons and neutrons disintegrate. All matter become energy, all energy transcends the laws of physics that we know, and the universe ends like it began, in an incredible explosion.

Perhaps the Big Bang that brought our bubble of reality into being was itself such a fireworks, seeding the void with billions of universes each with their own variant of natural laws. Perhaps new universes will follow ours, with laws of nature so bizarre we could not imagine them even if we could figure them out. Cascades of universes, billions upon billions, each of them unique, eon after eon. Why shouldn't God have fireworks too?