Saturday 13 November 2004

Pic of the day: Yeah, right. (The subtext says: "Have fun at work...") (Screenshot from the anime DearS.)

A week to whine about

By my standards, the past week has been nightmarish. Of course, this is in part because my standards are pretty high. There are other people out there going hungry, then screaming in pain and finally dying. Quite possibly they are going to Hell as well, just to complete the picture, although I have come to understand that this is mostly for the rich. Anyway, it hasn't been nearly that bad for me. That's the good thing I have to say about it. ^_^*

I had to stop taking my pain medication because I couldn't sleep. (The pills were not the cause for the lack of sleep, but the symptoms from lack of sleep are very alike to the symptoms of poisoning from the painkiller.) I did indeed get tiny blisters one of the days, though they have since receded. My gums are still inflamed, my left sinus is still inflamed, and probably the wisdom tooth that is between the two. Perhaps I should have removed it this summer after all. But remembering how long I kept bleeding after I pulled out the others (and I was younger then), I thought perhaps I should wait and see if either I or it died from natural causes first. If it has lasted this long ... but perhaps it hasn't.

The sinusitis trickled down in my throat, putting an end to dictation. The lack of painkiller is kinda noticeable on the wrist. The two first sessions of physiotherapy hurt more than they help, although this is supposed to change over time. Oh, and I should walk briskly for an hour each day? I already mentioned that one day my leg muscles simply weren't holding up, the next day I was too stiff to walk much. Today however I walked for an hour again, and made sure to cool down slowly, walking leisurely around in the apartment. I also made sure to eat some carbs to let my body replenish the glycogen I've spent. I feel fine in my legs this time, for now at least.

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I should do something about my sleep pattern. This thing is only partly of bodily origin, I am sure. I am also experiencing a small mental breakdown. I really ought to take some time to care for my soul (not the eternal soul I don't have, but the psyche). Hiding i Paragon City will only help for so long, I guess.

Normally, writing is good for my soul. So is walking, incidentally, and the two are kinda connected since I get many of my ideas while I walk. Not today, though. I am totally stuck in the middle of a chapter. On the bright side, I would just hurt my hand more if I kept writing.

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I have downloaded a fan performance of Koi no Mahou (the opening song to the anime Maburaho ... the anime slightly inspired my current novel a little bit, although I have dropped the soft indecency which the anime was replete with). I played the song while walking, using my pocket PC as an MP3 player. Oh yeah, and I am not sure whether it is a good thing or not, but I understand the title of the song without looking it up. It means "magic of (romantic) love". Actually I think there's another song with that name as well. Possibly more.

I reflected on this as I walked, that I have picked up a slew of Japanese words. Not so that I could keep up even a simple conversation in Japanese. No, the words I have picked up are like a poetry magnet set for Japanese love songs. With my vocabulary and a few choice other words, you could make a complete love song in Japanese. I couldn't, however, because I am not good at poetry anymore and because I can't get the Japanese particles right, you know "ga" and "ni" and those. Pretty much the only one I know how to use is "no". Sad but true.

I thought about making a supergroup for my alts on one of the servers and call it "Zutto yume mamotteru" because it sounds cool and probably means "We'll always protect the dream". Zutto definitely means always, although there is another word also meaning "all the time", and zutto zutto means for ever and ever. Yume means dream. Those two words crop up in a lot of Japanese songs... The verb mamotte means protect, mamori means protection, but I am not sure about the verb form. I think mamotteru is the best, just like in "ganbatteru". ^_^* Perhaps I should just stick with the basic form if I don't know the grammar ... Or worse, perhaps I should stick with English ... There's already a darkness-based defender called "Dream's Defense" ... you know, darkness and dreams kinda go together. Except when you're so stressed you can only sleep during office hours.