Saturday 21 May 2005

Pic of the day: Light and shadow.

Slice of life (and bread)

I was mistaken when I thought a week ago that summer had already come. It soon became cold again, and rain and fog come and go here on the south coast of Norway. Even so, I took another walk to the shop today. I bought a bag full of food, and had to mentally restrain myself from buying even more. I am almost always hungry these days. First there was the month where I could almost not eat, only drink. And then I bought the pulse watch and the new jogging shoes, and I have been exercising almost daily since then. Not hard, admittedly, but pretty regularly. So naturally I am hungry, and increasingly tired too. But when I'm hungry, I tend to buy more than I need, and especially groceries. I am not sure I have room for it all in the fridge...

On the bright side, I got a loaf of the delicious rye and wheat bread that I used to eat before I felt ill this spring. It tastes good, it lasts long and it is healthy. I am happy to see it again. I also recently bought a new type of sliced sausage to use on bread. It contains 40% less fat. The high fat content is one of the things I really dislike about sausages. While I don't usually eat much meat, I don't mind trace amounts of it in my diet. It is not against my religion in itself, it's just that meat is not very healthy and doesn't taste very good. And now that I can no longer eat fat, I have to be even more careful about meat products since they often contain fat as well.

Another 500 kcal spent walking, or was that 600? I wonder how I managed to keep my weight up back when I used to walk for an hour or two just for fun. I suppose I must have eaten much more. I wonder, if I keep this up, if I will start eating much again. Right now that doesn't feel physiologically possible, but you never know. My body might still have the ability to repair itself to some extent. It is hard to know, really, when I don't know what the problem is. I suppose I should get another appointment with my doctor, but what is he supposed to do anyway? If they couldn't find out anything when I was shivering and almost throwing up, it's hard to believe they would find out anything now when I only have a dull sense of pain in my stomach.

It all feels so unreal, you know. But I'm still here, and I intend to record my journey through life as long as I can. Sometimes my thoughts, sometimes my actions. But in truth there is a lot more thought than action. Or, as some smart person has said: "When all is said and done, more is said than done."