Sunday 21 March 1999

A new outlook on life? Not quite, I'm afraid. I'm basically the same person as I've been for a while. Only a bit more humble. I'm sort of proud of my humility. :)

Had a comfortable indoors day. Much of it in front of my computer, as usual. This happens to be where I have my music too. The rest of the apartment, except for the bed, is mainly storage area. Which is why it's not very funny to photograph.

Woke up an hour later than on weekdays. Played fluffy computer games. Made dinner (pasta, cheese, olive oil, favorite seasonings) and after dinner played fluffy computer games. Listended a bit to music.

Funny thing, when I listen to the new song from Infinity, I feel that it is harder to breathe, as if a weight lays itself on my chest. I guess that means I won't be playing it much... I think I know what it is in the song that gives me that feeling, too, but I can't find the right words to express it yet.

I think our languages (both English and Norwegian) are sorely lacking in good words to differentiate emotions. In particular, using the word "love" for anything from sexual lust to selfless sacrifice just plain smells wrong. I know there's all kinds of transitions here, but that's the way of many things. It is just too bad when you can't say "love" when you really mean it, because it also means something else that you don't want to say. And it's getting progressively worse. It's getting risky for fathers to love their children. I think the mothers are still allowed to say it, but for how long? We're really in need of good poets here, to get our languages up from the gutter where it has fallen.

Yes, this all ties together. At least for me. But tomorrow is a new day, with meaningless work to be done (so you can add your own favorite meaning of life), bills to be paid (other people gotta live too), food to munch (yay)! Hope to see you there.