Wednesday 29 January 2003

Pic of the day: "I want Hale and I to be a beautiful couple!" (Photo from the anime Jungle Wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu Deluxe.)

Today's entry was weird

So I won't upload it without giving it a second and third look. I wrote this very long entry starting with my current anime and my childhood attitude to romance and explaining why I am like this now. ("Like this" is ... uhm, I'm to romance what Attila the Hun was to architecture.)

I feel that it just spanned too large a distance and won't make much sense. I'll write something shorter instead. Perhaps I'll upload it if I find it to stand the light of day.

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Sometimes I feel like I'm thousands of years old. I don't believe in the New Age stuff and souls wandering from body to body. Spirit can appear in different bodies, but souls? No way. People just tend to confuse spirit and soul, and that's just so wrong. Anyway, it doesn't feel to me like romance is something I have missed out on. It feels like it's a thing of a very distant past.

You know, sometime in my teen years, something happened to me. It is like I resumed a saved game. I'm sorry if this makes no sense. But it is as if I started to live a life that was not just a continuation of my childhood. It was as if I became a compromise or a composite of what I had been and something or someone else.

It was as if a much older spirit was awakened within me, and I skipped millennia. My sanity wasn't quite at full level all the time, perhaps. It was a very strange experience. But luckily, young people are not required to be sane, so it went well enough.

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One effect of this whole thing is that I have probably given less thought to romance than others. Given how many songs there is about romance, it must be be very much on people's mind. Thus today's illustration picture, from Jungle Wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu Deluxe. In this series, our 11 year old friend Hale learns that his mother is pregnant, and the village decides that she should marry the doctor who is supposed to be the father. Hale's 9 year old friend, the girl Mari, thinks this is a great idea. She also decides that in order to make sure Hale will be hers forever, she needs to have a child with him. Now. It's rather funny and not ecchi.

I know I had some pretty strange ideas about romance myself in the past. Luckily this is all in the very distant past ... almost like an earlier life.