Not enough Sims 2!

When sims have permanent platinum mood – an unshakable mind – growing older is a cause for happiness. They will spend their elder years calmly and eventually pass on without fear.

It would seem a safe bet that people won’t regret on their deathbed that they have played too little The Sims 2. But once again it seems I am the exception to the rule. Although it is a bit early to say, I hope! But I already regret, and repent, not having played The Sims 2 as much as I should.

Well, not the game in general, but a particular project that takes up a large part of my separate Sims game journal. “Micropolis” (not to be confused with the game of the same name, which I heard of quite a bit later) is a simulated neighborhood in which I act as the guardian angel, inspiring my little computer people to achieve their goals and help each other create a Utopia by building their own inner strength and the ties of love and friendship.

Starting in the near future (sometime between now and 2050) six families come to a deserted farming village in the foothills of a mountain chain. All of them have lost loved ones and everything they owned in the great hurricane that destroyed their hometown. Starting from nothing, with a modest amount of borrowed money, they begin to create a new life for themselves and their children. This is the start of the story of Micropolis.

I play with stricter rules than those that are built into the game. The Near Future is seen as a time in which the economy in particular is harsh: It is hard to get any job without college education, which costs quite a bit of money. Houses are expensive and there are no subsidies, interest rates are high, and property taxes are increased fourfold. For people without jobs, without skills and without friends, the challenge seems almost insurmountable.

Over more than 50 years, we follow the small band of refugees through snapshots of their lives and their conversations with their guardian angel. Together they seek to combine their immediate needs and wants with their long-term aspirations and the greater plans for the whole society. They fish their own fish, grow their own vegetables, and gradually acquire useful skills and begin to climb out of debt. They raise children who eventually go to college, sometimes taking childhood friends or high school sweethearts with them. The children come home and get jobs or start shops. The small cluster of tiny homes becomes a village. Later large apartment buildings begin to appear, and the nearest neighborhoods also take part in the growth. They face new challengers: Climate chaos and mutating viruses. But through it all they continue to thrive under the constant guidance of their guardian angel.

More than money, the true wealth of Micropolis is its people, their skills and generosity, their friendships and love, their families and hospitality. It is these that makes Micropolis a small Utopia, a place anyone except the hardcore liberal would love to live.

I wish I had continued to write it, because it expresses my view of life very well and in a manner I think most people can understand if they have the spare time (it is a very long story). But I got distracted by other shiny things. And most of all, my laziness caused me to give it up. Writing the story itself was not so onerous, but due to the length of the story it became necessary to provide background summaries for all the families and eventually all of the sims. Keeping these info pages up to date was quite a bit of work compared to what you see of them, so I got fed up. I regret that now.

Many people these days (and probably in the past as well) do not understand well the concept of guardian and guiding spirits. The independent thoughts from their subconscious torture them, mock them or drive them to do reckless or outright damaging things.  That is not how it should be. I hope that my fiction can illustrate the kind of world I live in, which is basically the exact opposite. Long may it last.

“Come a little closer”

“You can come a little closer.” Look at his face! I know that feeling. ^_^ 

On the commute bus in the morning, the radio was playing, distracting me from my hagiography reading off and on. Toward the end of the trip, it played a love song which sounded like it was performed by an underage girl. This tends to creep me out, knowing human nature as well as I do now. Luckily (thanks to the miracle of Google and catching some of the words) I now know that the girl was Frida Amundsen, and definitely not as underage as she sounded, even back then. Finding the song was a bit of a challenge, because there sure are a lot of songs asking someone to come closer, closer to me.

I guess this is one of the most common human emotions. I can kind of understand it, even if I don’t feel it myself. During my attempt to regain my humanity, in my late 30es and early 40es, I learned a lot about human emotions. I should use this more in my writing.

I have always been in love with you,
But, you are unable to see that
I have felt this way, every night and day
Wishing that you would just come
A little closer
Come a little closer
Come a little closer
Closer to me.

Already when I heard it on the radio (and only caught a few words), it reminded me of a favorite Japanese song that I bought some years ago, after hearing it in the anime Midori no Hibi. The song Mou Sukoshi (“just a little more”) is also sung by a girl who sounds a bit childlike, and in fact expresses a wish to get a little closer to your heart. Just a little more, just a little more…

I have however never understood why people keep thinking and feeling this and never say it. In Heaven everyone may know what you think, but not on Earth. Men in particular Really Are That Dense. This is a scientific fact. We are not studiously ignoring you. Well, I might have been anyway, but it wasn’t necessary, back then.

Understanding humans is new and fascinating to me. I was not born like that. I thought humans were like me, and misunderstood you constantly. This upset me greatly. But as I grow, even as I become more aware of how different I am, I also come aware of how you really think and feel. And that lets me come a little closer. Just a little more.

Friends forever

Are there really friends that care about each other their whole life?

Are there really friends that can care about each other their whole life?

I wrote about this at length, but decided against uploading it. I’ve been writing entirely too much about spiritual things lately for someone of my pray grade. So I’ll try to make this more straightforward.

Yes, there really are friends who care about each other for as long as they live. Perhaps not their whole life unless they also happen to be twins, but from the onset of their friendship and forevermore.

St Teresa was one of those people who loved her friends very dearly and always had them close to her heart. You’d think someone who had God had enough, but to her there was not a clear distinction between God and his children. Those who loved “His Majesty”, as she liked to call Him, having them as friends was in a way like having God himself.

The key to robust friendship is that they are founded on love that gives without asking anything in return. Friendships founded on need are not robust. It could simply be the need to not be alone, so these will fade when there is someone more readily available to be together with. Or it could be the need to be entertained, or to feel important, or even in some cases an erotic “need” to be in the presence of an attractive person, which often excites people even if nothing comes of it.

But some friendships are based on a common love for something that does not fade. And these friendships can last for as long as we both shall live, and even beyond, so I believe. Be that as it may, my friendship is free and must be freely accepted. While I’m happy to help a friend, you should not be too optimistic about starting up your friendship by asking for favors, if you are just another greedy human seeking benefits for this brief life on Earth. But if you seek glory and immortality by endurance in good deeds, I’ll definitely consider being Friends Forever. ^_^ I could need more friends like that.

 

Concupiscence and OKCupidsense

"How about trying out sex..."

In our inner life, concupiscence is the part that is always eager to try out some expected pleasure, common sense be damned. If our will agrees, sin is conceived, meaning “mistake”, “error”, “missing the goal”. When the sin is mature, it causes death – the removal of our link to eternity, so that our physical death becomes an end to the meaning of our life. Apart from the actual vocabulary, I think any serious religion or spiritual philosophy will recognize this. Not all have a word for it though.

I learned a new word! That’s not often. Actually, I had a kind of vague idea of what it meant and would not have fundamentally misunderstood the text; I have a talent for that, absorbing words from context. But in this case it was pretty specialized: “Concupiscence.” I am mildly surprised that my spell checker recognizes it, even.

The only places I have seen this word, that I can remember, is in Catholic theology (or psychology, I guess, since it is about the human soul; God has none of it). Concupiscence is our natural tendency to want the wrong things. The word is indeed related to “cupid” and sexual lust is one of the typical ways this manifests, but it is not so limited. The tendency to seek pleasure in this world in any form outside of God’s will falls under concupiscence.  So it is pretty nearly a description of my whole life up until now. 0_O

In the Christian Church at Brunstad, we called this “the sin in the flesh”. Unlike Protestants, we believed that it is not a sin that condemns, until we give in to it. Rather it is a tendency to sin, and because of this it is really hard to live a pure life. But some people become free from it, bit by bit, eventually. Not many, it seems, but some.

Strangely, it seems the Catholic view is more similar to ours (for I still hold this belief, though without the specific vocabulary, which is too saturated for modern man. Mention “sin” and an elaborate defense mechanism is triggered, ending any rational discourse; so I rarely use the word when explaining how we humans keep hurting ourselves. Like it or hate it, language changes over time. In Norway today, “sin” means “sex”, more or less, and I hear this is getting common in America as well.)

Speaking of which, a quote from the Catholic Encyclopedia: “Hence desires contrary to the real good and order of reason may, and often do, rise in it, previous to the attention of the mind, and once risen, dispose the bodily organs to the pursuit and solicit the will to consent, while they more or less hinder reason from considering their lawfulness or unlawfulness. This is concupiscence in its strict and specific sense.” Bodily organs to the pursuit! Oh, the stories one could tell.

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The word became a lot easier to remember once I realized the “cupid” part. It reminded me of the American matching site OKCupid, of which I have been a member since before City of Heroes came out. I know this, because the reason I joined them was a City of Heroes quiz an online friend linked to, and it was based on the Alpha build of CoH. It was already changed when I took part in the closed beta, so it must have been around 8 years ago.

Anyway, that was how I came to OKCupid, and I am not sure it even was called that at the time. It started – as far as I knew, at least – as a collection of quizzes of all kinds. The idea was that people who had similar results on the quizzes would be interested in getting to know each other, I think. It has developed into a full-fledge dating site, including a mobile app that finds users near you (if they consent to being found). But it is still full of quizzes and questionnaires, so you can hang out there without outing yourself as a desperate loser. “I am just here for the quizzes.”  Actually, that’s more or less what I write in my bio. I certainly don’t need a puny human or its shallow interests. ^_^

But even so, I have plenty of concupiscence of various kinds. It is just that it doesn’t really lend itself well to dating sites. Computer games, on the other hand… I am still occasionally looking for that Fluffy Tails mod for Skyrim. They had one for the previous game, after all. No matter what your concupiscence, the Internet will deliver!

 

“continually with thee”

"Everyone feels that evenings alone are lonely times"

“Everyone feels that evenings alone are lonely times” says the teacher. But wait, there is one who does not feel like that, and that is I. For I am continually with thee…

So foolish was I, and ignorant: I was as a beast before thee. Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand.” -Psalm 73, verses 22-23.

This paradox is the heart of my life. I am not all heart, I have many other sides as well. But when we come right down to it, this is the mystery that sets me apart from the average person and changes everything. The “thee” in this text is presumably God. At least it is someone in Heaven. And that’s so for me too. If this Presence is not God personally, it certainly seems to represent Heaven.

The strange thing is that even though I have been as foolish and ignorant as a beast, if not more so, nevertheless I am continually with this Presence. It is beyond obvious that it is not something I have deserved or achieved.

And this more than anything else is what creeps me out about the teachings of St John of the Cross and various other highly respected saints. I can live with not eating tasty snacks or playing computer games; most of the world probably still has other priorities than that. I can live without a lot of things, if it is necessary. But I am not sure I can live, even literally, for long without the Presence.

The few times the Presence has been hid from me, typically for a quarter of an hour or so, I felt an anguish unto death. It felt like the core of my being was ripped out, and I felt physically weak, icy cold from the inside out, stunned by unspeakable fear, and the world had lost a dimension much like if you woke up and could only see in black and white. Everything seemed to be reduced to mere matter, as if the life and beauty and presence that fills everything had retreated to Heaven and closed the door behind it.

Now you may reasonably say that this is how people see the world, but I doubt it. I don’t think even hardcore atheists see the world dead and bare like that. They just are not able to realize that the life and beauty and presence all around them is not an automatic part of matter. Or they think it is just added by their own mind. And I guess that is correct, in a manner of speaking. But it is not automatic. It is not something the mind just can choose to add, or simply add by habit. It is something that can be taken away. But that intrinsic quality of the material world is not all of it, although it is striking. There is also a presence as if someone always watches over me with warm eyes, as if I were a small child playing in the presence of its parents.

“Continually with thee” is the best description I have ever seen of this. And even if I knew that something amazing was on the other side, I would not have the courage to let go of that hand.

I believe this Presence may have been there all my life. When I was four, my mother took me to a hospital in the city where I would spend several days being checked for various things about my asthma. She could not stay there with me, and could not afford to stay in the city even. She had to return to the farm, a night’s travel away, and it probably broke her heart. I did notice, but not much more. I had a most excellent time, except the nurses forced me to eat meat and fish. I put up a ferocious battle, and that was how my mother located me when she came some days later to pick me up. I was screaming – not for my mother, but rather, I was screaming: “I want just dessert! I want just dessert!” – because the main course was all full of dead bodies.

As a child, I was a talkative fellow, but I also spent hours on end alone by the river or in the forest or the mountain. All the while I was speaking out loud (it took quite some effort to stop it when I grew up), as if I took for granted that there was always someone there with me. I did not really think about it until much later, who or what my invisible friend was who was listening to me. When I learned to pray and later, in my teens, learned to stop praying and just listen, I could sense the Presence there, its aura as real as I myself if not more so.

And, except for those brief glimpses of Hell – or that was how it felt to me – I have been continually with my invisible friend. But it is not merely a silent presence. It has definite opinions on many things. It approves and disapproves, warns, comforts, gives me advice. It cannot be forced to “say” anything at all, and not to keep to any particular topic. It will supply information that it deems useful, for the most part, and often practical in nature, while my own thoughts often wander to obscure scientific topics it refuses to discuss.

So that is how it is. Sin is said to separate us from God, and it certainly makes things awkward, but even though I have been as a beast, I have been continually with Thee. It never caused a complete separation, a closing of the door. Well, actually I am not sure that one or two of those glimpses of Hell did not start with me sinning, but I know not all did. It seemed more like a biological thing, as if my God-sense was blinded. In a sense, it may have been more like my spirit had left together with God and the me that was left was “meat”. Although I am not entirely sure. I am in no hurry to test it again. Never is soon enough.

Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.” -verse 24.

The Presence has guided me with its counsel, exactly, probably before I even read this verse (although that is hard to say, I may have read it in the old Danish Bible I found on the top shelf when I was 10 or so). I am a lot more worried about the reception into glory though, because I did not always (or was that “not very often”?) follow that counsel if it seemed less fun or more bothersome than my own alternative. Only when things went wrong did I have to take the next counsel.

Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.” -verse 25

This was the verse I was actually looking for when I returned to this psalm today. In Norwegian it says “I have lust for nothing on Earth”, which unfortunately is not an accurate description of me AT ALL. But “none” is an entirely different matter. I mean, I am glad there are humans, I would not be able to live long without them, I even like some of them, they are decorative and sometimes interesting. But there is no ONE of them that I “desire beside thee”, no particular person that fills a hole in my life. I have never been in love, even though I tried when I was young. But there is no keyhole to which anyone on Earth is the key. There is no human-shaped hole in my life (or dog-shaped or whatever). There is only one hole in my life, in my heart, and it is continually filled, except during the glimpses of Hell (luckily long in the past right now, long may that last).

I know from experience that if I pray earnestly for something to be taken away from me, it can happen. I made that mistake once! I was young and too eager for my own good, and had noticed that when I did something good for someone, I felt a kind of reward inside, a warm glow of happiness like that of a dog being praised. Having read some hagiography, I prayed to God to take away this feeling, as it was pleasing to the ego. And from then on, it disappeared. I feel bad when I do the opposite, but I feel no pleasure in doing good. Which worked nice for the saint I had been reading about (Madame Guyon, I think), but not for me. I haven’t really done much good since then, because I am a big bag of ego and when I don’t get praised by the Presence, I don’t really care. I mean, sure, I can help, but I don’t look for opportunities or go out of my way.

So I am not going to ask for the “Thee” to leave me. No ifs and buts about it. No way. As far as I am concerned, I would be happy to stay like this forever. And ever, amen.

Why education?

A forced training facility for boys and girls!

A forced training facility for young boys and girls! The Shugogetten, an ancient protector spirit, discovers a modern high school and decides it must be razed to the ground for the good of the poor prisoners. I am sure some of them would agree.

These days, most people go to school for a dozen years or more. And yet many have never given much thought to why we are receiving all this education. What is the purpose of education? What is education good for?

When we are small, we go to school because we are told to do so, and because everyone else does. Also, if the school is even reasonably good, it satisfies a natural instinct in children: Curiosity. (It also satisfies their social instinct – children, and many adults, get very uncomfortable if there are not other people around, preferably several other people.) It is also pretty obvious that reading and writing are useful skills, reading especially. Even comic books become better when you can read the speech bubbles!

At the other end of the long corridor of education, when you approach college, you probably have a specific career in mind. And even if it is not very specific, you probably believe that higher education improves your chance to get a job at all, but especially a well paid one. So a good many people see higher education as an investment: You spend time and money in the hope of earning more later, and (perhaps not least) get a job that is interesting and has social status, rather than hauling parcels at some warehouse for the next forty years or more.

And that’s where it usually stops, it seems to me. But that is to underestimate the value of education, and to miss one of its main purposes. Education, properly understood, aims to make us human.

That is not to say that we are not born human. But our human potential is to a large degree just that, potential. A child raised by wolves is actually highly unlikely to build a city (contrary to legend) or indeed experience any of the joys of civilization. Culture is mankind’s attempt to answer that terrible question that arose some time in the dimly lit prehistory, when a human first lifted its face, looked around, and thought: “I exist! And I know it! OMG what am I going to do with this discovery?”

Since then, the fact that we can think has been a constant source of trouble, and to this day some highly respectable friends of mine sit down regularly trying NOT to think, a process known as meditation. But if that was the sole purpose of meditation, then trees and stones would have us beat already at the starting line. Rather, in meditation we seek to reclaim our selves from the myriad distractions that draw and quarter us, consume us and scatter our ashes while we are still alive. Its purpose is to make us whole, a word related to both “healthy” and “holy”.

Now seems a good time to ask what side our education stands in this. Does it make us whole, healthy and holy (inviolate)? Or does it scatter us, pull us from side to side or to different sides at the same time, distract us,  confuse us, remove us from our very selves?

This is not a rhetorical question, although sometimes it may seem so. Education can work in either of those two directions. And as we grow older, each of us has more and more responsibility for making sure we truly benefit from our education.

The philosopher James V. Schall has written a book to this effect, saying in its subtitle “How to acquire an education while still in college”, without too much irony.  In the rush to become high-earning adults, it is easy to forget the curiosity that made our heart beat strongly on our way to our first school day all those years ago. And not all have been privileged with teachers who protected that flame of curiosity, fed it without overwhelming it, and encouraged us to eat knowledge and grow rather than just carrying it on our back as an ever heavier burden.

I might finish this with a brilliant conclusion, but that would defeat the purpose of writing it. Rather, this is the time for my thoughts to step aside so yours can emerge. If you are undertaking an education, or even educating others, it is time to ask yourself: Are you gathering or scattering?Are you building, and if so, what? Are you growing, and if so, who will you be when you are grown?

Growing in wisdom?

"I don't really understand love yet..."

I don’t really understand love yet… and probably none of us do, to its fullest extent. But we can live and learn.

It is obvious that small children understand less than older children, and these less than adults. But at some time in their life, many people stop growing in their understanding, or at least their growth slows down to a snail’s pace. This does not need to be so. It is possible to keep growing for as long as the brain remains healthy, possibly a little longer.

Let me first mention the difference between knowledge and understanding. It is true that we need to first know. We cannot understand simply out of thin air. We need to know the various things involved in what we try to understand.  But just knowing lists of facts is not enough. We also need to know how they relate to other things.

You may say that bare facts are like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. If we have too few of them, we are unlikely to get any of them to fit together. But even if we have gathered a large heap of puzzle pieces, we still don’t have the picture until we put them together.

I used to play with jigsaw puzzles when I was small, and I recognize that feeling of excitement when the pieces began to come together, and a new piece suddenly made a bunch of them connect. It is a feeling I have met again later in life, in other situations.

This understanding or insight of how things fit together is wonderful and a great step toward wisdom, but it is not yet the real thing. We first have to test it in real life. It is possible to have insight in many things, but they do not become very useful until we have tested them. It is at this point that we flesh out our understanding. It goes from a two-dimensional picture to a three-dimensional sculpture, so to speak. This takes its time. But if we have got the picture right the first time, time and practice will bring the finished work into being.

You can say that if you build a house and the blueprint is completely wrong, there will be no house at all in the end, just a jumble of materials. So to have the right picture is important. But the picture is no place to stop.

I speak in comparison here, of course. I don’t mean that insight is literally an image. There are other ways to say this too. But I like this comparison, it goes a long way to make these words understandable. Knowledge, understanding, wisdom. You have to start in the correct corner.

We can learn details and we can learn the big picture. Both of these are necessary. We need a big overview, an idea of what the world is and how it fits together. But no matter how long we live, we can always find more pieces that show details inside the picture, and pieces that extend it at the edges. It is a puzzle that is not complete in a lifetime. But we can see many great things in our puzzle picture even so. And continuing to grow is so worth it! A lot of problems become much smaller when we understand their place.

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For instance, most of my fellow Norwegians have more money than I, and live in a slightly higher degree of luxury:  A bigger home, a car, usually a vacation home, or otherwise going on vacations far abroad. These things cost money, and so they worry a lot. If they lived within their means, they would have other worries, but they would not have the added worry of sinking into debt even though they work overtime. So they complain. Can I tell them that they will be less worried if they live a simpler life and buy less unnecessary things?  I suppose I could, but it would have no effect. This is not a knew piece of knowledge that I can add to their heap of puzzle pieces. They already have it, but they cannot see it.

It is like that with many things. There are things I don’t know yet, and there are things I know but have not put into the picture, and there are things I have seen but not yet shaped into life. The picture has not become flesh, so to speak. So I can continue to grow in wisdom for the rest of my life, or until the brain starts unraveling, whichever comes first.

 

Asocial games?

"To make friends, you need games!"

“To make friends, you need games!” Sorry, Yozora, but it is not quite that simple.

For some months now I have been playing browser games, sometimes called “Facebook games” since that is where these got their breakthrough. (I play them on Google+ though, since it has a separate games stream so people don’t need to see them if they don’t participate in such games.) Another name for these I have seen is “social games”. I would contest that.

Admittedly my experience is only with two of these games, City of Wonder and Cityville. These two fall into the “builder” genre and should in theory appeal to the more constructive player, although CoW does have a tiny element of combat (which is optional, not animated, and causes no permanent damage to the loser). The interaction with Google+ friends is entirely positive, consisting in giving gifts and helping out. So far, so good.

The first thing I notice is that most players only stay a few days. This could simply be because the games are not that exciting. But there may also be another reason why the appeal fades quickly: The other players. With extremely few exceptions, everyone is focused only on receiving, not on giving. In that regard it is a reflection of the real world, I guess. But the result is that the games stream is a long row of requests which are largely ignored, since people only check on their own posts. There are at any time a small proportion that are reciprocal.

I am mildly amused that people really think this will work. You’d think most had grown up in a family of more than one person (at least most people have a mother or someone who fulfills that role) and would have learned that you are likely to achieve more by cooperating than by begging from people whom you otherwise ignore. (For the sake of the discussion, I will assume that the players are more than 10 years old. I guess before that, you may actually get away with that kind of behavior at home, if nowhere else.)

It may be that this is different if your fellow players are people you hang out with in real life. One would seriously hope so. But in that case, I am not sure what the social aspect is, since you could be more social with the same people elsewhere…

By the way, here’s a website for Google+ City of Wonder players where you can help random people with their wonders 30 times a day (the maximum the game allows) even if you have no friends in the game. All you need is the free Google+ account and a free CoW account, and you can make 30 random self-absorbed clueless people slightly happier at the cost of a few minutes of your precious lifetime. Just make sure you don’t get sucked into the game and become like them. ^_^

 

Insane terrorists and others

Photo: Jon-Are Berg-Jacobsen/Aftenposten/REUTERS/SCANPIX

This picture is all most Norwegians have seen of our worst terrorist since WW2. Not a lot to base a judgment on. But since when has that stopped any of us?

Norwegian public debate ran into an ice berg a couple days ago, when a psychiatric report concluded that Anders Behring Breivik, the supposedly right-wing terrorist who blew up government buildings and massacred teenagers at a political camp this summer, was actually insane. “Paranoid schizophrenia.”

Very few had expected this. Certainly not Behring Breivik.

The public reacts generally with disbelief and anger. The general opinion is that these experts don’t know what they are talking about. Their scientific report should be overruled by people who have never met Behring Breivik, much less actually talked with him for hours and hours on end, and who have not even begun to read his own “manifesto” even though it is freely available on the Net. After all, they have seen the news on TV. That is all you need to know everything in the world, and have absolutely infallible judgment.

Yes, I’m putting the irony on here. My respect for actual humans is, generally, extremely low. This may not be obvious because my respect for the human potential is enormous. We have the capacity to become, fairly precisely put, godlike. In practice however we pay little attention to the soul and so we live and die as a writhing mass of mind parasites, largely unaware of reality beyond what is necessary to survive and procreate. Sometimes we may also fall short of this.

Thus, public opinion about terrorists in Norway and bankers in the USA only matters because we have some degree of democracy. Luckily it is mostly “opiate of the masses”, giving people an illusion of having real power. Long may this last. When the masses awaken, mass murder is sure to follow, since approximately 5% of the population are utterly devoid of conscience, and the remaining 95% generally have no idea how to constrain this minority without the rule of law. That’s, you know, why we have the rule of law in the first place.

So chances are that despite the loud wailing, the court of law will listen to the extremely tiny minority who actually know what they are talking about, and ignore the overwhelming majority who don’t. This is as good as it gets. One day perhaps we will in great numbers realize our human potential. But until then, most live and die only a few steps from insanity, and some will fall off the edge.

 

Humans as sims

Grumpy child from Sims 3

Here to talk smack about us sims again? We’re just as good as other people, you know!

By now, a few expansions and patches into Sims 3, the little computer people are disturbingly lifelike in their behavior. Or rather, and this is my point, humans are disturbingly sims-like in their behavior.

I hold the view that ordinary humans are barely conscious most of the time. Instead, their behavior (including their thoughts) can largely be described by two “engines” that work together: HABIT  and IMPULSE.

The skeleton of a normal human life is the habit engine. It is itself not conscious: We don’t give any thought to whether we are going to get up in the morning – well, most of us don’t – or whether we are going to get dressed before going to work. We have large, overarching habits that gives us a structure for the day, and which again triggers smaller routines of habit to accomplish subgoals like buttoning shirts or tying shoelaces. In other words, we have a habit of stringing together habits in a certain sequence. This fills a good part of our day. As we get older, habits tend to grow stronger and fill ever more of the time.

The other engine is what I call the impulse engine. For fellow programmers, you may have thought of it as triggering an exception. One reason for such an impulse could be that a need has reached a trigger level: Hunger, thirst, excretion, attention. Usually a trigger event occurs well before critical levels are reached, although some needs have shorter fuses than others, so to speak. But in many (most?) cases the basic needs are already taken care of by our habits.

But the impulse engine is not triggered just by internal needs. It is also triggered by external objects. Seeing a bowl of snacks can trigger snacking, although I am not sure where the border goes to habit in that case. Seeing a sexy woman can definitely cause a trigger event in a man. Seeing a baby can trigger most women and many fathers, although most childless men consider babies part of the furniture unless the thing screams or stinks. And of course the whole business of advertising is based on triggering impulses. Of course, if you do that often enough and in the right context, it can eventually lead to a habit.

Both the habit and impulse engine are reasonably well modeled in The Sims 3. The little electronic people have a disturbingly human-like electronic mind. What they don’t have is a human soul (in the classical sense) or human spirit. This has to be provided by the player.

“Great souls have wills; feeble ones have only wishes” says a famous Chinese proverb. In that light, sims are exceedingly feeble: Without the support of their player, they will achieve their goals purely by accident, and higher goals (like reaching the top of a career or maximizing several skills) not at all. They will however be able to stay alive, employed and reasonably satisfied about their needs, and even reproduce and raise (usually crazy, neurotic, grumpy or hot-headed) children.  From what I hear, they are not very different from Texans.

The purpose of religious ritual, like keeping the Sabbath or saying grace, is to interrupt the automatic working of the twin engines of habit and impulse, and give the soul a bit of “space” in which it has the chance to wake up for a moment and become aware. It tries, like this blog, to make people suddenly sit up and think: “I am right here, right now. This is it. I am alive!”

I may not have mentioned it on this blog, but I have noticed that the median weight of Norwegians has increased steadily after saying grace went completely out of fashion here during my childhood and youth. Of course, there are numerous other factors like the size of dinner plates and the widespread use of cars. But still… if you woke up each time you sat down to eat, and became acutely aware of who you were and what you were doing, would it change nothing?

Sims never say grace. But even if they did, it would just be another habit.