“I have a strong sense for the supernatural”. This may be a good thing if you run into the right supernaturals, but even then it is far from enough.

“He who ‘knows’ theoretically does indeed enjoy metaphysical certitude, but such certitude does not yet penetrate his whole being; it is as if, instead of believing a description, one saw the object described, but without the sight of it implying either a detailed knowledge or a possession of the object” – Frithjof Schuon, Prayer Fashions Man.

I’ve recently read a bit in this small but dense book by the hero of Perennial Wisdom. It is fascinating to me to see how much of what he writes says the same things that I struggle to express, and says it with crystal clarity. Unfortunately, these crystals are very hard or dense or impenetrable, so for the common man it is not easy to understand Schuon at all. At best one will find a few sentences here and there that stand out. But practice helps, and especially reading more accessible literature on the same topics.

If you knew me, you would see why I think Schuon writes about me and people like me in this particular paragraph. I hope I make no pretense to being a spiritual teacher, for such a person needs to BE what he teaches, whereas I am like a tourist or at best an immigrant in a new country, writing home to tell what I SEE.

For some reason I was given the grace to see various truths. Well, we can specify it a bit more than that: Because of my pure love for truth, I was allowed to see it. You know one of the most famous sayings by Jesus Christ: “Blessed are the pure of heart, for they shall see God.” In the same way, despite being more a scientific mind than a religious one, I developed a pure love for Truth or Wisdom; this is already a grace, though from the outside it looks like virtue. But there was in this “virtue” no effort, but a pull toward the pure beauty of Wisdom, which is more radiant than the full moon rising on a dark night.

At the time, my love was pure, for I was attracted to Truth itself, not knowing that it would also bring me great joys. This is analogous to an innocent young person’s first love, who is unaware of the pleasures of lovemaking, but is still filled with a longing for the other person and a wish to see and be with the beloved. Once you know by experience what awaits you should you be received by the one you love, it is almost impossible to be that selfless ever again. At some layer of your mind you will always calculate with a reward, even if you would have loved the person without it.

In this way, I can no longer lay claim to the pure love for Truth, Knowledge and Wisdom that was my greatest grace. But I did see enough to enjoy certitude, as Schuon puts it. You must understand that when Schuon says “theoretically” here, he does not refer to someone who simply learn things by rote from a book. I did indeed learn from books to some extent, but by resonance rather than memorization. For the Knowledge we talk about here is of a higher order, it is Knowledge of the heart.

Even this Knowledge, however, is flat until lived. It remains just an image. To gain that extra dimension that makes it fully real, it must become flesh. Another famous phrase in Christianity – perhaps the core message of the religion – is that “the Word became flesh”. This is also in a certain sense an example for us. Until the Truth becomes flesh, becomes embodied, becomes lived life, it is incomplete, shallow, flat.

And that’s where we are now, isn’t it? Postcards home from Heaven.